🎭⚔️CONFESSIONS OF A GAY DRAMA QUEEN: PART TWO⚔️🎭
by Adam Cerny
🔞CAUTION🔞 Rated R for language
{In this follow-up sequel to CONFESSIONS OF A GAY DRAMA QUEEN (which you can watch right HERE 👉🏻http://bit.ly/2rV0PA5👈🏻), the character of “Adam” continues to wrestle with his shadow. The shadow of “Adam” personifies a conscious + androgynous entity named “Drama”. “Adam” is a character; this film is not autobiographical. It’s very fictional.}
Every piece of art I create infuses a self-reflective meditation. I received the gift of being an artist to work through reconciling differences in my life.
What does that mean?
Every single one of you has a duality within you. As I grew up I realized I was living halfway between two valid worlds. Reality + Fantasy. I created a space for both of them; I walked that fine line. When these two realities fight, that is the inner discord I speak of so often. They fought + struggled to merge together. Much like how we fight to merge with another through the act + professing, of “love”
I can bring the fantasy into reality when I play out + perform these raw emotions for the world to see. It’s not me you’re seeing, though. It’s not me you’re hearing, either. I have the innate ability to reflect (or, mirror back) to you the reflection of yourself. What you’re seeing through me are all the parts of yourself you either love or hate the most.
Recent world events have divided the collective. I cringe when I hear the trite adage, “We’re all in this together!”
No… we aren’t. We are definitely NOT in this “together”. I refute that statement because it’s not accurate.
The accurate (and, more honest) way of phrasing it would be: “We’re all on a journey together, but, we’re not IN this TOGETHER. In fact, we’re very NOT together.” Because that’s the reality.
It’s also the opportunity. Amidst all this pain we feel, see, hear, etc… there is an infinitesimal spark of joy. Of light. It's yearning to burst out + merge. We’ve received the opportunity to CHOOSE union with ourselves. With others, and with our various realities. We can choose integration. We can take all things + consider their best interests as part of our own. That’s love.
We grow up thinking all “bad” things in the world are separate from us. We’re taught there exists a predator + a victim. A clear division between right vs. wrong, good vs. evil.
Childhood is ripe for fragmentation of the mind. As children, when we experience trauma, our consciousness splits in two. Into two separate fragmented realities. It must do so to protect our emotional body. By the time we reach adulthood, we’re directing 50-100 “fragments” of ourselves. All existing at the same time. Everyone operates with several personalities.
The irony is that this mechanism exists for the sole purpose of protecting us. In fact, it’s the very thing that destroys us. We’re all a bunch of fragmented people. Walking around damaging each other without even knowing it. Hurt people hurt people.
If you study your enemies, I promise you’ll start to recognize yourself. You’ll come to the epiphany that there is no separation, and an ego-death happens. A complete process of undoing. What then?
You marry the night. You integrate your shadow. You get to know the sickest, darkest, most obsessive parts of yourself. In reality, you love yourself that much. As you should. You get to know these parts. You bring them into the light (love), and then, integrate them back into your consciousness as you see fit. That’s your birthright.
I use the characters of “Adam” + “Drama” in both films to show that, at no point, are we ever unaware of what is what. For everything we don’t know, we always have the answer. Deep down somewhere. Always.
If you take anything away from this blog post or from viewing the short film, I hope it’s this. You are always going to be the one you’ve been waiting for. I, too, wish we could find that mirrored in other people, but that’s not the reality.
Tell yourself that you are there for it. You’re showing up. Then, promise yourself you’ll never abandon again.
You can do this.
Why?
Because I SAID SO. THAT’S why. 😘
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-ADAM xoxo
MAY 2020
