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🔞CAUTION🔞 Rated R for language {In this follow-up sequel to CONFESSIONS OF A GAY DRAMA QUEEN (which you can watch right HERE 👉🏻http://bit.ly/2rV0PA5👈🏻), the character of “Adam” continues to wrestle with his shadow. The shadow of “Adam” personifies a conscious + androgynous entity named “Drama”. “Adam” is a character; this film is not autobiographical. It’s very fictional.}
Every piece of art I create infuses a self-reflective meditation. I received the gift of being an artist to work through reconciling differences in my life. What does that mean? Every single one of you has a duality within you. As I grew up I realized I was living halfway between two valid worlds. Reality + Fantasy. I created a space for both of them; I walked that fine line. When these two realities fight, that is the inner discord I speak of so often. They fought + struggled to merge together. Much like how we fight to merge with another through the act + professing, of “love” I can bring the fantasy into reality when I play out + perform these raw emotions for the world to see. It’s not me you’re seeing, though. It’s not me you’re hearing, either. I have the innate ability to reflect (or, mirror back) to you the reflection of yourself. What you’re seeing through me are all the parts of yourself you either love or hate the most.
Recent world events have divided the collective. I cringe when I hear the trite adage, “We’re all in this together!” No… we aren’t. We are definitely NOT in this “together”. I refute that statement because it’s not accurate. The accurate (and, more honest) way of phrasing it would be: “We’re all on a journey together, but, we’re not IN this TOGETHER. In fact, we’re very NOT together.” Because that’s the reality. It’s also the opportunity. Amidst all this pain we feel, see, hear, etc… there is an infinitesimal spark of joy. Of light. It's yearning to burst out + merge. We’ve received the opportunity to CHOOSE union with ourselves. With others, and with our various realities. We can choose integration. We can take all things + consider their best interests as part of our own. That’s love.
We grow up thinking all “bad” things in the world are separate from us. We’re taught there exists a predator + a victim. A clear division between right vs. wrong, good vs. evil. Childhood is ripe for fragmentation of the mind. As children, when we experience trauma, our consciousness splits in two. Into two separate fragmented realities. It must do so to protect our emotional body. By the time we reach adulthood, we’re directing 50-100 “fragments” of ourselves. All existing at the same time. Everyone operates with several personalities. The irony is that this mechanism exists for the sole purpose of protecting us. In fact, it’s the very thing that destroys us. We’re all a bunch of fragmented people. Walking around damaging each other without even knowing it. Hurt people hurt people. If you study your enemies, I promise you’ll start to recognize yourself. You’ll come to the epiphany that there is no separation, and an ego-death happens. A complete process of undoing. What then? You marry the night. You integrate your shadow. You get to know the sickest, darkest, most obsessive parts of yourself. In reality, you love yourself that much. As you should. You get to know these parts. You bring them into the light (love), and then, integrate them back into your consciousness as you see fit. That’s your birthright.
I use the characters of “Adam” + “Drama” in both films to show that, at no point, are we ever unaware of what is what. For everything we don’t know, we always have the answer. Deep down somewhere. Always. If you take anything away from this blog post or from viewing the short film, I hope it’s this. You are always going to be the one you’ve been waiting for. I, too, wish we could find that mirrored in other people, but that’s not the reality. Tell yourself that you are there for it. You’re showing up. Then, promise yourself you’ll never abandon again. You can do this. Why? Because I SAID SO. THAT’S why. 😘
ALL WE EVER NEEDED WAS LOVE (Pandemic of Loneliness)
By Adam Cerny
I want to preface everything by saying that this is only a perspective. My perspective. It’s very important that we hold space for everyone to feel how they want to feel. There is no “right” or “wrong”. I hold space for all perspectives because everyone’s is valid. The only place I’ve observed where we land together is the land of fear consciousness. Not only am I feeling it, but I’m watching humanity respond to fear consciousness.
I’m not going to tell you what I know you should do or feel, because what the fu** do I know? (I know a lot, actually) Live your life and do you, right? The idea that I should be telling a group of people what to do; I mean, think about that. The answers you’re looking for aren’t going to come from out there somewhere. They’re going to come from inside of yourself. Because – when hasn’t it? Think about that. Think about your life. What you’ve been through. All the pain you’ve endured + all you have suffered. Then – remember that you still laugh. The point is that it is still good in this world. It is still good for you. It can be.
Is that enough? For you? For me? I’m not sure it is, sometimes, to be honest. This is why I cannot paint myself as a saint, as much as I would love to do that. Trust me. I’m an actor. In case you hadn’t noticed, I LIKE the attention. Every single other actor out there agrees lol. You all know it. So – I’m being honest because I don’t know how NOT to tell the truth. This is why when I tell stories on stage, I fuc**ng mean them. It’s real for me. But – this – isn’t a story. We’re in real life.
This is not about “dealing” with ANYTHING. This is about dancing with it. In times of crisis, there is so much opportunity. Wanted vs. unwanted is a design to help develop your own self-awareness. I have a SPOILER ALERT for you. Fear is not going anywhere. One cannot live a life without fear. Fearlessness? There is no such thing. Hiding our fears from people doesn’t mean they aren’t there. What is the fear? It’s information. Information on a world or an outcome that is not wanted. It’s in the reaction to the fear that causes people to do regretful things. Ignoring fear also causes us to do stupid things. But – why is this? Fear has a way of persuading us that the most important thing in life is survival. I’m here to say – that is incorrect. The most important thing in life is not survival. The QUALITY of life is what is most important.
In case you hadn’t yet noticed, most of 2020 is going to be about owning fear. We’ve all lost our capacity for the destruction phase in rebirth. I've experienced several near-death moments in my life. I have a standard to measure “being alive” next to many things. This virus has exposed our society’s OBSESSION with privacy. When our privacy becomes compromised, fear + panic set in. Our immune systems weaken.
The virus has taken complete advantage of an immune-compromised society. Overworked, overstressed, overstimulated, and undernourished. We’ve created a detrimental mix that births a cold + dry environment for this virus to thrive. The answers to our questions start inside. When was the last time you did an internal inventory of yourself?
What CAN you do? Recognize the paradigm of fear is a story created from a misconstrued reality. It's gone overboard. Have empathy + understanding. Fear-based paradigms aren’t stopping or going anywhere. These paradigms will continue. We continue to shift into the quantum field into higher dimensionality. There are no shortcuts. You cannot escape this. You must see it + watch it + experience it because it’s up to you to show the way out of it. We cannot blame the way humans are responding to their consciousness. For those of you who understand me – you are a light being in human form.
The opposite of fear is love, so fuc**ng practice love. Take this time to work on yourself. You have a GIFT to live a better life in a new world. Every single person on this Earth deserves the right to enjoy the life they’re in. Share your thoughts with others. It doesn’t matter how much worse anyone else has it. Everyone’s feelings are valid + need acknowledgment. Hope can and will deliver you from your darkest days.
People need people. I’ve always said this. Please - it is my ask to all you. Try to cultivate authentic space to hold validity for everyone’s individual realities. We are a pack species. We can’t survive in isolation. Yes - people can be annoying. Yes - life is not fair. But you know what? Sometimes, it IS fair. Sometimes, people + connection makes you feel alive. Turn the situation into a win-win. Not for me. For yourself. Do this, for you. It’s the most loving act of kindness you could give yourself now.
You’re going to fu** up. We all are. We’re going to make mistakes. We can count on that being an inevitability. Think about polarity. If that endless list of unwanted things is infinite…then the opposite side of the coin exists. What stands between you + where you want to be? Show up for yourself. Because you can.
It's easy to feel small in a world of billions of people. It's easy to convince ourselves that we don't matter. I can assure you nothing could be farther from the truth. You do matter. You are pure energy. What you do with this life means something. I wouldn’t sell you spiritual novocaine, which is why I’m telling you the way things are. You, yourself, you matter. When you are sad and when you are happy. You create a ripple effect. You would not be right where you are if you weren’t supposed to be. The easy way to tell is if you weren’t where you’re supposed to be…you wouldn’t be there. Very easy.
All you EVER needed was love. Start acting like it. I promise you – you will come out of this a brand-new person. The person you always wanted to be. The person your inner child dreamed of becoming. You WILL come back into alignment + harmony. You are LOVED. You're SEEN. You're HEARD. And you are MOST DEFINITELY validated.
